My journey...

Yet another year has came and gone. I remember one year ago we were wishing each other "Happy New Year" or the more "religious" a "Blessed New Year". Looking back, 2006 has been one of the most challenging year for me. Not happy at all. It has been one of my worst. At times, I do not even know what I was doing. I have distanced myself from my friends. Wallow in my self pity. Wondered why am I even a Christian. It is a year filled with confusion and disappointments. Hope that has been busted. Yet through all the experiences, God has been faithful. I have learnt to be still and know that He is God. It is when you are in the desert that you notice every single wild flower that emerges from the ground because they are so obvious when all around is just sand. It was like that for me. In my journey in 2006, I manage to recognise the flowers along the way. The goodness of God. His blessings. His hand upon my life. It is this year that I relect upon my Christian faith. No longer do I just walk blindly. I rediscovered true friends. People who really care. It is this year that I started my blog. It is this year that I get to go to Israel and see the Bible come to life for me. It is this year that I get to go to Australia to be with relatives that I have not seen for a long time. It is true that we learn the most valueble lessons through our toughest times.

Happy 2007? Well I do not know what 2007 will have install for me. Whatever it is, I do pray that it will be a time in which I grow more in Him. To know Him better. Whether through good times or bad. That my journey will be one that pleases God in all areas of my life. I know I will probably fail here and there. That is why I need His grace but as much as I can, I will try. This I know that there will be a wind of change in my life. New things are going to take place. I am excited. 2007. Begining of a new journey for a new year. Things are probably going to be the same next week. I will still wake up at the same time to go to work. Take the same route. Driving the same car. Meet the same people. Do the same stuff. Then come Sunday, go to church then youth and the routine starts. But I do hope that my walk with God will be different. Internally I hope to be different. So God, unto You I commit my new year.

I was in Australia and I fumbled across my cousin's Hot gossip magazine. The front news reads "Shocking News. (Name of actress) is pregnant". Now how is that shocking. We know that nowaydas, people do sleep around. Expecially the rich and the famous. They boast about it. They "stay together". Today I even saw a T-shirt (in Malaysia) which says "I am a virgin (and this is a very old shirt)." People are almost embaressed that they are still virgins. So why is being pregnant so shocking? It is the fruit of your action. Don't they know that it is how you get pregnant? Play with fire and you get burn.


I believe that it is shocking because it is out of God's order. The kingdom of God is a kingdom of Order. EVerything in His Kingdom has order. Just take a look at nature. Things may seem chaotic but they have a certain order. We get married first before we get children. Its alright to sleep around as long as the kids do not come. Trying to justify your sin? When things are out of order, it is not His kingdom. There are rules to follow and obeyed in His Kingdom. He has put HIs Kingdom in our hearts. He gave us conscience. But at times, we taint our conscience with the things that we see. we overwrite it by new values we place in our lives. We have new values based on the media and our role models. Our parents and the film stars. It's alright for them. And we begin to believe in disorder. The order of the kingdom begins to seem not as important. We are in control of our lives now. Live as we want. Anyway, it is more fun. So it seems. Until another disorder comes as a shock. Then slowly as society accepts the disorder as a norm, disorders may not seem to be shocks anymore. If society believes that marriage is not important and it is alright to be single parents, being a pregnant before marriage is not a shock anymore but a norm.

People by nature likes to be in control of their own lives. By a certain age, we would want to shift out of our parent's home so that we do not live under their rules. We create our own rules. We do not like to abide to rules. But the kingdom of God has rules that we are to follow. Those rules make sure things are in order.

Our journey as a Christian is to bring order back. To show that it is important to have that order. And that it is possible. At least I will try in my life.

Christmas has just came and gone. It was such a hectic time. But it has been good to catch up with people during all the parties and dinners.

On Sunday as we were singing carols about Jesus. The reason for this season. Carols like "Away in the manger" "Silent Night" "God rest ye merry Gentlemen". We were not singing about Jesus in His greatness and majesty. Though He is all that. But I am reminded that Jesus, my king and my Lord came not as a King or someone powerful but he came as a baby. Could you imagine a baby. Helpless and can't even stand on his own. Yet Jesus trusted Himself with Mary and Joseph, mere humans to take care of Him. God chose the most unexpected way to come. (Sometimes God can use the most unexpected things or person to talk to us, to guide us but we miss it cause we are waiting for something more. We overlook it cause it is unexpected.) The savior of the world, Jesus, humbled himself, The Son of God, to be like us, came as a babe just for you and I. Such faith Jesus had in the Heavenly Father and such faith they had in the people that they counted on to take care of Jesus. Yet it is because He chose to come in this manner that He can identify with us. That we can identify with Him. He has also been through the growing pains. The storms that we face in life. He understands. My Great King and Lord humbled Himself, came as a helpless babe, went through his journey in life here on earth so that we can have life and life most abundant. It is because of this that I am a Christian today. That people all around the world have hope. The message of Christmas.

Christmas is the season
When we remember the real reason
It's not just a celebration
But Jesus the center of our religion

Christmas is the season
That reminds us Christianity is not just a religion
Jesus came for a reason
To us the greatest gift of love was given

It is for us that He came
Restored us to the Father
took away our shame
Bringing God's kingdom in His name

I just came back from Brisbane Australia not too long ago. Brisbane in now suppose to be in the season of Summer and the time that I was suppose to go, the weather was suppose to be very hot. We nearly postponed our trip because of the hot weather. Just the week before I went, it hit about 40 deg C. I was hoping that it would be cooler because I just love to spend time in nature. Go for bush walks and be in the mountains and if the weather is hot, then the experience would be terrible. I really love the mountains and the wildlife in Australia.

God is faithful and He shows His love in little surprises along life's journey. When we were there, the weather took a turn and it was very cooling. About 24 degC or lower. At night, it even reached 16 deg C and we even needed a jacket. God is good. Because of this cooling weather, I managed to spend most of my days out doors rather then staying in shopping malls trying to cool down. I managed to go for my bush walks and see nature. The day after we leave to return to Malaysia, the weather again went back to the 30s deg C. I nearly cried. God is so good. My Australian friends and relatives could not explain why the weather suddenly took a turn.

I always feel closer to God in the mountains and with nature. Just to see His majestic creation and to be in the quietness to reflect "stuff". Here are some pics. How can you resist that view!





It has been a good trip. Not to mention all the reunion with my relatives. I have not seen some of them for years and they have been dear to my heart. Especially my Uncle Kim and Aunty Grace whom I have lived with for 6 years. This whole trip has been a blessing to me. Part of God's little surprises in my journey

Today as I was driving to work, I saw a car sticker which says "God please give me strength to deal with all the IDIOTS who cross my path." and Idiots was in bold. And guess what. On the other side of the car, this guy has another sticker which reads "Jesus loves you". Yeah Jesus loves you but I think you are an idiot! No wonder non-Christians think that Christians are a confused bunch. A lot of people think that Christians are hypocrites and you wonder why.

Are we showing love to the non-christians or even Christians because it is our "Christian duty" to or are we genuinely concern for them. Sometimes, we are so focus in winning souls for Jesus that we do everything in our capacity to be nice to the non-Christians but once they have become Christians, we will leave them be. Or we look to them in pride that this person is my "fruit". Or we treat different people differently cause lets face it, some are more lovable than others.

God sent His son for all. Even those whom He know will reject Him. He loves them all the same. Jesus knowing that not all will follow Him yet He spent precious time with them. People who seems to be the "rejects" of society. The tax collectors and the prostitutes. This is genuine love. Loving people without any motive or expecting something in return.

In our journey in life, examine the things that we do. Are our actions contradicting to each other? As Christmas is just around the corner, Remember that Jesus came for everyone.

I have to tell you guys this. I just came back from Australia and I found this small little town called Mooball. As the name suggest, it has something to do with cows. Everything is black and white cow design. Even the electric poles have cow motifs. The petrol station and the toilets too. My kinda town. Have to show you the pictures. I just love that place. Quiet too. Maybe oneday I will stay there. Hee hee.

Just a short blog entry. I saw the cartoon cars at the airplane. I nearly cried at the end. I am sure anyone who saw it would feel like crying too. This little car has trained to race all his life and all he wanted is to win this major race. But at the end, he realised that life is not all about fame and about winning the race but it is much more than that. It is about showing love and giving out love. Our life is a journey but do not focus on finishing it. Stop to smell the flowers. Enjoy your relationships. Show love to the people around you. That may cost us. It may even cost us our ideals or dreams. But at the end, when we do what God has called us to do, to be His hands and feet, you will know that it is all worth while.