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Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Another Year passes by
Another year is passing by. This year seems to have gone past really quickly. I have not had time to sit and digest what this year has been. The theme for our church Christmas is Emmanuel, God with us. This certainly has been my theme for the year. With so many things that seem to have happened, God is with me. Through the thick and the thin, God is there. I went for a silent retreat this year. Discovered again a renewed love of God and love for God. God revealed to me the Father's heart through the story of Mary and Martha, through the parable of the prodigal son, through nature, through the stillness and the quietness of my heart.
How through nature you may say. I remembered one morning during my silent retreat, I was captured by a tiny flower growing by the road. I went near to have a look and God said "look how delicate and precious this flower is. Look at the little details in the flowers. I take care of the details in your life too and you are more precious than this flower. You are my precious." Throughout the whole time of silent retreat, it was like God sending me little love notes. Love messages through nature. I also saw a heart shaped leaf growing out of a bush whose leaves are red. Like God's little romantic gesture to me. Wooing me.
This year has also been a year of growing. A year of learning. Started again on my studies and my modules. My theology classes. It has been a year of knowing him more. A year of Growing. I feel that it is a year of preparation. Preparation for something that lies ahead. But at this moment my vision of what is ahead is very blurry. Just like sheep in a holding pen. Waiting for the release to another pasture. But that is not for me to worry about. What I need to do is to look to Him. To gaze my eyes upon Him and follow.
Paul mentioned in his sermon once said that we do not ask to mature in Him but ask to know more of His love for us. That is what will transform us. And ultimately help us grow in Him.
God revealed the condition of my heart. I have not really known the Father's love for me. I have not really understood the extent of his love for me. Perhaps we will never really know the full extent but He shall reveal to us more and more as we seek Him.
This year has its moments of ups and also moments of down. Moments where I really feel very very stretched. To the Max. Where all I can do is look to Him. Trust in Him. Sometimes I wonder where that faith lies but I am thankful that though we may lack faith, He still remains faithful. That is my God.
With a thankful heart I leave 2009 behind. With hope and faith I enter 2010.
One year is near its expiration
Another year waits in anticipation
What would be my expeditions?
what could be my expectations?
How through nature you may say. I remembered one morning during my silent retreat, I was captured by a tiny flower growing by the road. I went near to have a look and God said "look how delicate and precious this flower is. Look at the little details in the flowers. I take care of the details in your life too and you are more precious than this flower. You are my precious." Throughout the whole time of silent retreat, it was like God sending me little love notes. Love messages through nature. I also saw a heart shaped leaf growing out of a bush whose leaves are red. Like God's little romantic gesture to me. Wooing me.This year has also been a year of growing. A year of learning. Started again on my studies and my modules. My theology classes. It has been a year of knowing him more. A year of Growing. I feel that it is a year of preparation. Preparation for something that lies ahead. But at this moment my vision of what is ahead is very blurry. Just like sheep in a holding pen. Waiting for the release to another pasture. But that is not for me to worry about. What I need to do is to look to Him. To gaze my eyes upon Him and follow.
Paul mentioned in his sermon once said that we do not ask to mature in Him but ask to know more of His love for us. That is what will transform us. And ultimately help us grow in Him.
God revealed the condition of my heart. I have not really known the Father's love for me. I have not really understood the extent of his love for me. Perhaps we will never really know the full extent but He shall reveal to us more and more as we seek Him.
This year has its moments of ups and also moments of down. Moments where I really feel very very stretched. To the Max. Where all I can do is look to Him. Trust in Him. Sometimes I wonder where that faith lies but I am thankful that though we may lack faith, He still remains faithful. That is my God.
With a thankful heart I leave 2009 behind. With hope and faith I enter 2010.
One year is near its expiration
Another year waits in anticipation
What would be my expeditions?
what could be my expectations?
